Isn't it amazing?????

How exercise can make you feel so much better? Well it does for me anyway. It has been a week I guess since I started getting into it again. It has been hard though because it has flared my foot up again so I went 3 days with no exercise. So of course my eating slipped as well but I will get there. I think I need to just slow it down. I started running again and got massive shin splints again. So today I just walked for 35 minutes. (while watching True Lies) and that was ok. Not perfect but not so much agonising pain. So that is always a good thing!

Met G yesterday at the shops for a coffee. (in reality he had a cherry ripe muffin and I had a strawberry smoothie) We then ventured off to JB HiFi and Myers. He only had an hour as he had somewhere else to go to. It was mainly so I could give him his birthday pressie. I got him a bottle of wine called the Musician which is a cab sav, shiraz blend and the new Metalica Album. I love giving presents and I was not disappointed with his response. So that was good. Of course now I have no idea when I will see him again. I am not making any move to contact him now. I have done enough of that. If he does want to see me really again he knows where to find me. (I should mention that any friends on facebook who read this and actually know who G is. He is one of my friends and he finally has a photo. 2 even. Although they are fairly crap ones. Least you can see whom I have been raving about for so long!)

He is loving his new job and he has only been there a week and it is only training so far! So in that aspect I am so very happy for him. Hopefully he has found what he has been looking for!

Not much else to report really. Pretty boring as per normal. No kids as it is school holidays. Back to work tomorrow. Which I think is a good thing as I will just indulge myself in a trip to pity town otherwise.

Ok off to have breakfast finally then some study. hang out some washing and mop the floors. Lol never ends really does it?

Men are such jerks

So we had one of the new girls doing her second shift today. Along with another that has been with us for a while. Both are blonde, petite and lovely. And it ticks me off that the guys treat them differently because of that. They are only really young and I just can't believe that these guys behave like they did.

A decided that he would tell the new girl to go and have a break. Did she know she was entitled to a break? He will stay on register while she can have a break. He is floor staff for heavens sake. Who died and made him front end controller? Then it looked awful because I told her she had to wait while I packed up the shit I was working on so I could open my register because A really shouldn't have been on register. He always complains that he can't go on register so I can go and do stuff.

And M. Who is a manager. Geez. Just standing there talking to them both. Walks out of the building ten to 5. I am late out as usual, because he doesn't give a shit. Arghhhhh. Thankfully that happened in front of the store manager. The thing I am finding though is that most people have a problem with M at some point or another.

Fingers crossed the new store manager will start changing things. It is coming but it is just slow coming. I want it to happen now.

Just things.......

Not much is happening here. I had a fairly crappy weekend. Crappy in that I have no one to talk to. No one called me. There is no one! I watch DVDs. I watched You've got Mail. I thought that after the J saga it may have been spoilt for me but no it is still my favourite movie. I am such a romantic idiot!!

Friday and Saturday were two of the best days at work that I have had in a very long time. Friday we had a new girl start so I spent the majority of the day training her.

Saturday I arrived at work to discover that Ian the boss had got another two girls in so I could go help out on the floor as there was only one floor boy the night before and the place was a mess. So I was seen by Ian to be very very willingly lugging cartons of beer around. It was good. He can see that I have more to offer than just being on register. (lol not that moving beer around requires huge intelligence but it shows that I was willing to take direction from the boys out the back when usually it is the other way around when they have to come out to the front end which is my domain.) He also saw me train up the new girl and manage the front end when we were drastically understaffed. Oh Mark also got me to make all the "unfortunately you were not successful in gaining a position at this time" phone calls! Ian commented on that as well and I said I didn't mind doing it as I didn't know the people so I just did it. (sounds awful but I am sure you all know what I mean.) Having said that I don't think that the other girls were overally happy with me not being on register!! Although I have the majority of the hours we have always "appeared" to be on an equal footing but this one girl who was called in to start at 9, which is what I was supposed to be doing, was really not happy.

But least the boss saw me doing other stuff. He knows I want more. So hopefully this is the start of new things. Lol probably not but we shall see.

Decided to get off my butt and finally do something about my weight. I have put on enough that basically I am going to have to go out and buy new clothes. I can't afford to do that so I need to lose weight! I think this was the reason I got rid of all the clothes that were to big for me back then!! So I was on the treadmill this morning. I did a weights type workout and then back on the treadmill. I did an spreadsheet similar to what I was using at the gym, So I know how many reps etc I am doing. I have eaten to much today but least I did major exercise today. Tomorrow I plan on getting on the treadmill before work and then we have taekwondo.

Talking of taekwondo. Patrick had a comp Saturday. Matt thankfully took him. He apparently didn't talk to anyone. Lol probably to intimidated by all the black belts. Who are the nicest of guys! Anywho Patrick won 2 and tied 1. I wish I had been there. I was so proud of him.

Talking of shit for brains. The kids get their trophy's this friday for soccer. Now because Matt paid for Lachlan's fees and equipment he thinks he should have the trophy. His trophy he calls it. It is Lachlan's trophy for heavens sake. If Lachlan wants it here then that is his call surely? Matt won't allow that though. Says he paid for it so he gets the trophy!! go figure.

lonely and bored, bored and lonely

Not really bored I guess. Just that to get up and do stuff requires me to change out of my work clothes and I can't be bothered. I am a bit cold but not cold enough to put the heater on.

Lonely because G starts a new job on Monday. Have I mentioned that? He is going to be working 9-5 Monday to Friday in town. Really really good for him. He has needed regular for a long time. So it is good for him. Sucks for me though. I am not going to see him as much, if at all. It was really only the gym and occasional bed that we see each other. Now with regular hours he is going to be able to get himself a girlfriend and have time to spend with her. And there goes my fantasy of him suddenly realising that I am the one for him. Yes I am a sad sad case. But in reality he is the only male close to me. And he isn't even that close. I have a huge crush on him. Part of me knows that is only because he is a nice guy. He is the only nice guy I see outside of work and the sex is good. I only have any of that with him so I cling to some vain hope that he will suddenly fall in love with me. Yeah I live in La La Land. But it is sad in many ways. It makes me sad to know that what little I have with him I will lose. It makes me sad to know that I am so pathetic that I live in La La Land. Oh this is just so hard to explain.

I honestly have tried being happy with just me and the kids. But I am not. I miss J. Even though he is a jerk and pissed me around. But I miss that company, albeit over the phone. I miss that person who would txt me and say good morning. I just miss all that stuff. All that stuff I have never had before.

Why do I find it so hard to just be content with what I have? Why don't I accept the fact that no one is going to come into work and sweep me off my feet. (yeah I have those fantasies as well) Accept the fact that G is just not the interested in me. Despite the fact that I have my mug up on a internet dating no one is interested in me apart from smokers, wankers or really young guys. I think I want perfect. That of course is never going to happen.

So in general yes I am feeling really really shitty.

Procrastination is a wonderful thing.........

I have been really slack with my study over the last few weeks. Well maybe not slack but just want to do nothing when I get home or have time off so haven't been as diligent as I should be. So the consequence of that is I am frantically trying to get assignments done in a very short space of time.

The house is a massive mess and if I don't start folding some clothes they are really going to take over my house. And yet here I am on the computer!! I did however have a deal with someone though lol.

A fair bit has been happening around here so be prepared for a long one..... Work is going ok. Did I mention we have a new store manager? He seems ok. I have already spoken to him that I want more out of my job and he assures me that will happen. I did however find out today that I am been promoted to level 3. Nothing much changes with that. Means a little bit more money. Not a huge amount and Centrelink will probably take more away than I have gotten from work but oh well.

The kids had this Wednesday off school for the Royal Adelaide Show so I thought we would actually go. I took Thursday off work as well so that I didn't have to get the kids up so early after such a full on day. So Monday night I am awoken to Patrick vomiting. Nothing like cleaning vomit up in the middle of the night. So I called in sick Tuesday from work. Patrick although very off colour managed not to be sick again. Thank heavens as he is a typical man when he is sick. Pathetic. By the end of the day he was feeling much better.

So Wednesday we headed off at the crack of dawn to beat the traffic and pay our $25 to park in a private car park. Expensive yes but the walk after the show back to the car kills me. I hate it with a passion so I thought stuff it I am paying the money. I had prepaid the entry tickets about a month ago and brought ride tickets a couple of weeks ago. So only needed money for sideshows and food.

We got there before it opened and when we finally got in we got a locker and away we went. I had forewarned the kids I would not put up with crap and they were great. Lachlan got horrid towards the end wanting show bags but hey he is still only little really. We walked around the arty crafty stuff early because it was easy with so few people. We did the police stand and the kids got their photos taken on the bike. No wait. We walked passed it later in the day and the line up was massive.

Karen, Simon and her sister and hubby ended up going that day as well so not long after we got there they arrived as well. We met up so the kids could do the rides early. Patrick ended up going with Karen so he could go on the rides with Amy and I took the other two to the kiddy rides. Of course they were in different sections. The kids had a great time. Prepaying the ride tickets was such a moneysaver!! I wish I could have seen more of Patrick on the rides but that is life and it was much easier doing it this way. None of the "when is it my turn?" etc.

I am not a ride person so I just watch. I don't pay to throw up. After we ran out of tickets we met up again so I could take Patrick and we went out separate ways. We just walked around looking at things. Buying yummy chocolate etc. I brought lunch with us. So we stopped for that. So much cheaper doing it that way. Just mini quiches and donuts.

We ended up at the grandstand at about 4. The kids were worn out by then. Karen and co met us there an hour or so later. And we stayed in the grandstand until after the fireworks. Lachlan was pretty hyped up by this point with all the crap he had been eating. He ended up sitting next to Karen and has he adores Karen he settled down after that.

The weather was great except near the end when it rained a bit. It was blowing towards us, so even though it was under cover we got a little wet but nothing major. We had our blankets so it was all ok. We had hot chips for tea. Poor Patrick though, after that he had to have a couple of quick trips to the loo. Least it wasn't vomit though.

The finally at 9.30 we left!! It was a great day and what made it better this year was although we went though a mass of money it was ok. I mean I am sure there are heaps of other things I could have spent that money on but it didn't absolutely kill me to spend it all at the show! It is a nice, albeit hard feeling to explain.

Talking of money, I finally had my hair professionally coloured the other week. The ends are still really really dark from all my years of doing my hair myself but I am happy with the colour. Just a brown but least it is a bit more even now. I am happy with it.

Oh back to the show, this was the first year that I have not had sore feet afterwards. Today my foot was a little bit aching but I have not been zapping it with the machine as much as I should so it is my own fault. That machine has been so great. I am thankful to Kathy and Karen for the use of that for as long as I like. I would love to buy one but they are about $4000 new!

Also an update on the cellfood...... Buy it people. Best thing for me. I no longer have that tired feeling. No more vitamins etc. No more energy drinks. (I am sure I wouldn't need coffee if I did drink it lol) I take cell food shots if I need an extra boost. (a drop of cellfood in the cap filled with water!) Anywho...I can't rave enough about it. I will not go off it now if I can help it. I can tell if I haven't had it for that day.

Yes I am still lonely as well. It was hard at the show at times, especially seeing Karen and Simon and Kathy and Shane. All these couple everywhere and just me walking around with my three kids. It would have been nice to share it with my own special someone. *huge, massive sigh*

Ok I really should go and tidy something. It is a bit, though, of where to start. Pointless of trying to get the kids to help. A whole other long involved story that I can't be bothered with. So off to slave.