Alone

I do like it when the kids aren't here. I get to do things like go for a run down to the beach etc.

But.... and this is massive I feel so alone. Since I saw Rachel and Karen the other week, and that quick msn convo with Rachel. Nothing from anyone. I don't really have good friends. The only people I am in contact with are my parents and work. It is so depressing to see how empty my life is.

Surely it isn't that selfish to want a little bit of a life outside of my kids. To want more than that? As I have said before. I guess it is something I just have to get used to. My heart and head scream differences.