the wonderfully, delicously warm fuzzy stuff

He misses me even when I go to just hang the washing out!
I wake up in the night to find his arms around me.
He holds me and tells me I am beautiful.
My kids, in no way, shape or form scare him off.
He makes me laugh with his silliness.
I do not have to pretend at all when I am around him.
He tells me I am sexy when I am in my flannel pjs!
He had flowers delivered to my work for me!
He is happy to just be near me but not necessarily doing the same thing.
He loves chick flicks.
He holds my hand while he drives. (when it is safe to do so lol)
He cooks a lovely lamb roast.
He holds my hand in public as well as putting his arms around me.
He is so very affectionate which is great because I love that.
He is down to earth and is just so easy to get along with.
He is a genuine guy who takes things as they come.
He is happy for me to dag it. ( as he does it as well)
He doesn't drink a huge amount.
He wants to show me off.
He has a great work ethic.
He is not a fighter and doesn't argue.
He pictures me in his future.
He is so calm and confident about us.
Nothing fazes him.
He wants to help me do things around my house. Like mow my lawns and clean out my shed.
He accepts that fact that I am insecure and time will sort that out.
He looks after me.
He opens my car door for me. Not all the time but a lot of the time.
He understands me.
He just accepts the fact I am in his life. No ifs, buts, I am here and he is hanging on to me. (that probably doesn't make sense to most but it does to me)
He totally spoils me rotten.
He still does all those things even after being together over 2 months.



I think I will add to this as things happen!

Just things........

So I am going in the taekwondo competition. Not doing the sparring but the forms. So it is rather exciting but more frightening!!!

I didn't have my surgery, it got cancelled because the surgeon was sick. So I scored two days off in annual leave instead. It was great. A came over after midnight on the Wednesday after he finished work and stayed at my place until Monday morning when we both had to work. Had a great 4 days off. We went to IKEA and a few other places Thursday. Friday I went to breakfast with Keri from work. (different store) Then dropped A at work and went to town to meet Kylie and Wendy. First time I have met them and it was nice to finally meet them.

Saturday I had to work. As did A. Saturday night we went to see Transformers. Which we both really enjoyed. Although the queues etc were awful. We went to Noarlunga first up, then went to Marion but the only seats were basically front row. So back to Noarlunga, where we got our tickets and had dinner than went and sat at the movies until it was half hour to go and then we stood in front of the door waiting along with the rest of the population!! Sunday we slept in for way way to long. Then A did my brakes on my car while I mowed the lawn. Then the wonderful man made me a roast.

I also tried weed for the first time Sunday night. A found out I had never tried so he got some. Thankfully not something he only does rarely but it did nothing for me. I was telling K at work about it and she said I should try a cake she makes. A also said he would make me cookies. Honestly it was pretty gross. It will good to experience the whole stoned thing but once I have that I will be happy!!

Since Thursday I have been driving A's car. Because my brakes were dodgy he basically let me drive it all the time. He is great. The only thing..... yes there is a thing..... my own doubts. Silly silly stuff. I just get so scared that he will toss me aside. Someone better will come along blah blah. All of that. When I am apart I think of all the bad things that could happen so when we are together although on a whole I am good there are still walls up.

I spoke to Raina about it and she suggested it was seeing D again. Which I had seen twice last week but now have no reason to see again. She could be right but consciously I don't think so but perhaps subconsciously? Anyway. I deleted him off Msn and unless he comes into work I won't be seeing him. I am going to write all the good things and reread them whenever I have doubts I will read them. Because I have no reason to doubt him. He is a really good guy who wants to commit. But wants to take it slow.

Not much else is happening really. Kids are still a bit horrid. But they are getting there. Patrick and Laura want to go in the taewkondo comp as well so that is good leverage!! lol

hmmmmm......

Busy busy busy. I have been flat out lately. With mum and dad going away and then dad's birthday party I have been helping them out heaps. I am hoping now things will settle back down.

So things with A are moving along nicely. Slow in many ways and bloody fast in others lol. I don't know how to slow the fast bits down but oh well. He met the kids last week. I called into his place after work and found out that he wasn't working at all so he came back to my place for dinner. Of course the kids were there. It seemed all ok.

I met his mum on Friday!!! Yeah I know. She actually lives in QLD and surprised him by showing up on Tuesday. She went home Saturday so I ended up meeting her and her sister for a hot choc. (A was there as well) Of course she has already come into Dan's and sussed me out. But it was funny though because I guessed it was her!!

A cooked me dinner last night. Spag bog. Geez it was so nice. Really really yummy.

So the interesting gossip. D flew back in yesterday. Today he came into work. Just as I was about to leave. He knows my hours so he had it planned. He looked good, short but good. I do find him attractive. And much more attractive that A. That bothers me. But I don't want D back I really don't. Nothing had changed really. I am sure if I put forth a getting together he would have jumped on it. He is back on the dating site again. I feel for the other girl he hooked up with just before he went away.

But it was good to see him again and I think we will be friends. But that is all it will be as I am not attracted to him in that way anymore. His looks are great but his heart sucks!! He told me he met someone over there blah blah so really nothing has changed.

I have my surgery on Thursday. Kate from work is taking me and A is picking me up because mum and dad go away for 10 weeks tomorrow. A is staying with me as well because I have to have a responsible adult with me for 24 hours. lol. I don't have the kids this weekend so we are spending the weekend together. We are going to see the new transformers movie and he is going my breaks. I enjoy spending time with him and he makes me smile so much. He just treats me so well and wants to be with me and the kids. He blows me away with how keen he is. But it doesn't scare me anymore. He is encouraging the slow going because he knows that is what I want. And really he is happy for it as well.

P got suspended from school Friday. So he has yesterday off school. He told a teacher to F off. Great just great. I was a bit worried it was all tied up with them meeting A but after talking to him I don't think it is. He says he wants me to be with A if it makes me happy. So that was nice to hear. He just needs to control his anger. He is so much like his dad. I guess we just keep working on it.

October and the QLD trip is getting closer. I am getting so excited about it. I can't wait. To catch up with Raina again. To just relax and watch the kids having fun and enjoying themselves. I just can't wait.

My flowers

They have opened up more now.

I held my breath and good things happened

So he was not gone long at all and he did indeed come back. I got drunk on his jager. Lol. We watched movies and went to bed.

We slept late Sunday was well and probably would have stayed there longer if it was not for a friend of his wanting help to move some furniture. So off we went. I met a couple of his friends. One I had already met but nice to meet more. We got saturated as it was pouring with rain. After we did that we stopped off get some fish and chips and then back to his place so he could watch the football. Lol I read my book. But it was nice cuddled up on the couch. Just being together both doing what we like.

He had been having some computer troubles so I helped him sort them out and then we left to take me back home. He had to call into his work so he knew what hours he was working this week. He then let me drive his car. OMG I scared myself. It is a SS commodore. This so does not mean much to me except it is a nice car. Anyway. I was driving very carefully and we got to traffic lights and he told me to go for it. I did and the car went and then it went again it felt like. I screamed shit and took my foot off. Mean while A is just killing himself laughing!!!

So all in all a very good weekend. I am going to be seeing him briefly on Thursday after work and then he is going to meet the kids on Sunday. I figure if he is going to help me out when I have my surgery then he may as well meet the kids. Of course I just informed him that I am cooking so if my kids don't scare him off my cooking will. lol

Ok off to the shops and swimming. I will put up a photo of my flowers later.

Flowers.....

I got flowers.....delivered to work. From A. So nice. I was so surprised. It was lovely.

Last night we went to the central markets. It was a great night. We got some cheeses, kabana, sun dried tomato's etc. We grabbed a couple of DVD's from the shop on the way home and had a nice night at home as well. He ended up staying the night. Nothing happened just kisses and cuddles. We ended up staying in bed until just after 3 in the afternoon. Talk about nice. He left a few hours ago to go to a party but said he may ring and come back later. Not holding my breath though. Once he is at his party he may not feel like driving all the way back up here.

I really enjoy his company. I really do. He has the greatest heart and will do just about anything for me with is nice. Thing is I don't find him as attractive as D. Really so not someone I am attracted to. He is a tad hairy.Having said that he is certainly attractive. But he is the lovelest man I have met. And that is what matters.

My surgery has been made for a week on than what it was. Of course mum and dad will be away. So it will be a taxi job and then me picking the kids up after I get home. However, I was talking to A about it and he mentioned that he would be there for me so I may just take him up on it if he is willing to go the whole hog.

I am thinking about asking him to Dad's 60th party. Of course it is a cruel thing to throw him in the deep end like that but he can say no. lol.

Love it when I am right.

Patrick's birthday yesterday. He is 12. He is lucky to be alive to see those figures. Seriously his behaviour is horrible. I am running out of ways to try and help him change it.

Yesterday A came over. It was after the kids had gone to Matt's. And yes the play fighting turned into the kiss. Lol Knew it. And kissing a guy with facial hair isn't that bad after all. No beard rash like you get kissing a guy with day old stubble.

Anyway we eventually went to dinner and movies. Wolverine. Nice nice eye candy. What more can I say really. Arms. Mmmmmm

After the movie we came back to my place and more kissing lol. I really wanted him to stay. I really did. Was just cuddling on the couch and I was falling asleep. It was just so nice. Of course then the kissing would start again. But he was good. Lol Although I had no intention of it going further than a bit of hand wandering and kisses I really did want him to stay. I was so tired I just wanted cuddles and to fall asleep. But he did the gentlemanly thing and left albeit reluctantly. Lol. If I had had it my way he would have stayed. So he certainly gets points for that. Lots of points.

Again I will rave about how nice he is. Just nice. No other word really. Ok respectful and nice. Lol.I feel like he would just about do anything for me and although I know he is really keen he is happy to take is slow just as much as I am. Unlike other people I could mention he is happy to put his arms around me in public. Unlike others who were always worried that we would be seen as a couple if anything like that happened. He wants the whole bit. But happy to take it slow and make sure it is all ok.

So we will see.

Mum and dad go away in a couple of weeks. They are going to be gone for about 8 weeks. In a way I am glad as it will give us all a break away. I don't have to feel so totally indebted to them for looking after my kids etc. Yet it will be hard without them. Especially I go in for the day surgery on the 25th now not the 18th.

I really want to go and see Raina in the school holidays. But I really don't think I am going to be able to still but it is on my mind constantly. I want to be able to be there and just sit and hang out with her and we can both off load and be ourselves and enjoy it. Although I have met her once I class Raina as one of my closest friends. Certainly one I talk to more than any of my other friends. Not that there really is that many. But I wish we lived closer so we can be there for each other when shit hits the fan and we need a shoulder. Life really is sucky sometimes.

Onward and upwards?

Friday night A came over again. He txt me during the day asking me if he could. He did on the previso that the kids were well and truly in bed. They did show their face during the night but didn't see who it was. I lied. Bad mum and just said it was G. Anyway it was a nice night again. We watched Elizabeth Town. I love the fact he likes chick flicks. It was his movie that he brought over lol.

No moves made again and the bloody anticipation is going to kill me when I see him next. Lol. We have this bit of a joke going on at the moment about me taking him down with my taekwondo. So we had a little bit of game on that night. But as there were kids in the house and I was laughing so much we stopped. It was fun though. I haven't laughed that much in a while. So the game will be on again at some other point. Of course the good old play fight turning into a kiss. Shall we take bets as to that is what is going to happen? I am seeing him tomorrow. I will let you know lol

I had my appraisal at work Friday. I have been a little worried about it as although I know the store manager is happy with me, the service manager and I do not get along that well. But it was all great. I got exceed in lots of parts. Which from what I gather doesn't happen much. It was also said that I am the next trainee manager to come out of the store. So on the road to that I will be learning more things. Including payroll. Lol should be interesting.

Been having heaps of problems with Patrick lately. We are close to our breaking point with him. He is such a lying, horrible shit. Who has to have his nose in everything. He is rude and will not lift a finger to help. Yet expects everything to be done for him. He is constantly ripping into the other kids and is so rude and disrespectful to his teachers.

We have really started to crack down on what he is allowed to do. So things like runescape, swimming and soccer are on the cards to be taken away. It is his birthday tomorrow. 12. If he lives that long of course.

Laura had a taekwondo comp yesterday. She shocked everyone with how good she was. She beat a blue belt and a red belt. That is higher than I am. Very proud of her.

Rest of the weekend......

So...... I had a date Saturday night. Well it was actually just a meet for a hot drink. Then that hot drink turned into dinner and then a walk and then a drive.......

He so isn't someone I would normally go for. He has facial hair. Never been out with someone who has facial hair. He is a big guy as well. Just average weight wise but a big built guy. (he has a hair chest as well. Not that I have really seen it but...... not that keen on that lol)

Anyway he is just the nicest guy, he really is. So easy to talk to, makes me laugh. He is just a big softy. He likes a lot of chick flicks as well which is good. He loves his car and is right into his sports. Football etc. So not me. lol After we had finished our hot choc and coffee and had sat for a while talking the waitress asked if we wanted menus for dinner. So we did that. The we sat talking for a while more. Then went for a walk. Freezing but nice. We went to the end of the jetty and stayed there for ages just yacking. (reminded me of D as that is where we went as well on our first date) After that we walked back to the cars. Neither one of us wanted to end it but not really knowing what to do either. lol. So in the end we went for a drive. While we were driving up the esplanade he told me about this coffee shop Spats near the city that he had heard about but never been. I had been there about 15 years ago. So off we went.

We couldn't believe how packed it was. So popular. We had to wait for a sit but not to long and the whole time we were there there was just people waiting to be seated. It was really nice.

Then we went for another drive to all the hot spots of Adelaide lol. So Rundle St, Hindley st and Glenelg, and made our way home. It was so cosy in his car though. Nice leather seats, we had great one hit wonder songs on. Seriously though if he had to go any further I would have fallen asleep. I was just so cosy lol

So as Raina would say no octopus arms. He was the perfect gentleman and it was such a great night.

Yesterday morning I got a call from Karen (it was her birthday) saying that they were having a bonfire etc and did I want to come. I was supposed to be meeting G and then going to mum and dad's for tea. So bit ticked I would miss it. So then I get a txt from G cancelling on me. I give up on him now. Sick of it. I know he has got heaps of shit to deal with. (haven't gone into it on here and won't be.) But even so. Anyway long story short I went out to Karen's.

Had the best afternoon. The bbq'ed lamb was yum. We just had it in rolls with gravy. It was their own sheep and it was delicious. I had a ride on one of the bikes. Shane took me. OMG how scary and fun all at once. He did a wheelie with me on the back and just went flat out. Then he said want to go again of course I said yes. lol Surprised they couldn't hear me at teh bottom of the hill.

Later on that night I was chatting to A on the net and I mentioned that I was going to watch The Holiday. I had only seen it the once ages ago. He said I wish I was there, I love that movie. So I invited him over. Again another great time. I got a bit happy with my southern comfort. But not to bad. He ended up staying until about 1am. Again the perfect gentleman. I got a kiss on the cheek when he arrived and a hug when he left. lol. But it is there, the build up to something lol. I am liking the build up. Normally I don't. But the flirting was there etc.

I blogged about a guy a couple of years back who just never made a move. He lived to far away and after a couple of dates I called it quits. It just wasn't happening. This is the first time in a long time I have not had a guy try something on the first date let alone the second. But it is there. I know it is and that's what makes it different from this other guy. There was no flirting with that other guy. So now I am wanting the move to be made hehehehe.

I txt him this morning but didn't get a reply and that worried me. Me being me I worry to much about the little things. I need to stop that. Anyway he finally replied tonight with a lovely txt that made me smile and had the little innuendos in it as well that relate back to the flirting etc that went on last night.

So I have a smile on my face. (apart from the kids fighting) And we will see where this one leads. I still miss D so much but it is nice to know that that is getting easier though. In a way I am not looking forward to him coming back but I still have 3 more weeks before that happens.

My weight is continuing to drop. It is amazing what happens when you do not continually stuff your face with food. Of course today has been one of those days where i have not been hungry at all because I have done nothing but EAT!!! Oh well tomorrow is another day and I know if I am sensible today won't matter. And if I am sensible all week by Friday I may just see the 70 something. Now that has not happened in many years!!

Now I am off to get the kids organised for bed so I can head to bed myself. 4 hours sleep last night is not a good thing for me.