anyone know a good hit man?

Ok so after having a few days to think about it, common sense has prevailed. As much as I want to I will not be keeping Patrick home. Basically what it comes down to is I will get into heaps of trouble, Matt may end up with more time with them and I am back to square one if not less than that.

I am waiting for my lawyer to call me back but he did speak to dad and it doesn't look good. There still isn't enough to vary the order. I don't understand this, I really don't. Isn't the fact that my child is scared to go back to his dad. That is just doesn't not want to be hurt again. Isn't that enough for a court to say hey there must be something going on here? Apparently not. The police, the courts and child protection need broken bones, bruising etc before they can act. Or witness's. I have not said a word about it to Patrick but he has heard the cops tell me, he has heard what the lawyers have said. It would not surprise me if he starts bruising himself so that he can use that. And frankly who can blame him.

Matt for some reason unbeknownst to anyone other than himself has had Patrick seeing a counsellor after the txt incident. I don't have a problem with this but call me a cynic but I just really wonder what his motive is for this. There has to be one. Anyway, I have told Patrick to tell this woman everything, not to lie, as he doesn't need to but anything he wants changed then tell her. I told him that if he told her about Dad hurting him she would have to report it. I really don't want him to lie. My big thing through all of this is that the truth will prevail. Matt is such a lying prick that we are not going to be like that. But to a 10 year old it may seem like an easy out. Mind you if that did happen you then have to ask yourself why is a 10 year old prepared to make up stuff to get out of that situation!! Bottom line is that Patrick does not want to be with Matt. Lets respect that and deal with it.

I will keep you updated. Right now I am not in a good place as I am finding it very difficult to send Patrick back to a place where this is a chance he is going to get hurt. He was devastated when I told him that he had to go back. I only hope that he knows I am trying my best to get this sorted for him.