Bugger take two

Took meatballs out of the freezer this morning only to discover tonight that I have nothing to have with them. I am way to stuffed to go and get something especially as it was close to 5 when I got home. Pizza it is and I will cook the balls tomorrow and have them myself over the weekend. (lol couple of meals there)

Started at 8 today and was basically full on until 4. I slowed down though I was stuffed. I really struggled from about 3.15 onwards. It is good doing different stuff but sometimes the checkout looks good. However I am sure that when the time comes I will want to get off the checkout.

The chick that I want to slap was in today again. Complaining about how tired she is and just whinged and whinged. I swear she is acting like she is 7 months pregnant not 5 weeks. I am not the only one who doesn't like her so least it isn't just me. She was quizzing me about the supervisors job again today. For heavens sake I don't know and at this point I don't care. I will get informed in due course what is happening there and I personally think it is the last thing on people's mind at the moment. Poor Mark was struggling with the roster today especially as he found out that his wage budget was about $10000 less than the other stores because we are new. Mmmmm don't know where the logic is there given they are thinking ours will be the busiest store!!!

Looks like I am getting full time hours next week. 9-5 at this point. Not sure which days yet. Poor guy I do feel sorry for him.

It is hot here and I hate it.

Bugger

I swore at the kids tonight. The big fat F word. I feel so awful but I had had enough. Let me paint the picture.....

Met dad at the mechanics at 7.30am. He drove me to work and then he took the kids with him to Bunnings to fill in time and then dropped them at school. I started work at 8.00am. Found out that I had not been paid and might get paid next week. More shifting boxes and fighting with glass shelving. Find out that the boss as wangled mine and a couple of others pay to go in and I may have it Friday. Meanwhile I have $7 in my account and I find out that Dan's have tried to take the money out for my uniforms. I finished at 4.00pm. Dad picks me up and tells me that the radiator was not damaged in the accident and it is just old age. $350. I have no money so have to humble myself yet again to ask for money. Go to school and sign the kids out of OSCH and sit in the car for an hour while Patrick is at cricket practice and Laura and Lachlan fight (literally). Lachlan also decides that he is going to go off at me because I don't want him swinging off the car door. So he gave me a whole mouthful of cheek and every time I dished out a punishment he would do another thing. Got home at about 6.20. We need to be at Taekwondo at 6.45. Sitting eating a bowl of cereal and the kids start fighting over the yoghurt. I lost it and yelled and told them I didn't want to put up with their crap and they need to fucking stop it. I can't believe I said it and I feel so bad but I know why I did. Because this is all full on.

Today has made me think that I can't do this. This whole working full time. But what choice do I have? I am studying, looking after 3 kids and trying to keep my house tidy as well as try and keep myself sane by giving myself time. But feel guilty when I do. I also haven't been to the gym since starting work and I miss it so much. I think it is just today. Wednesday suck. I work 8-4 tomorrow and then 9-2 Friday then the weekend off. My last day off was last Friday. I don't have the kids this weekend so I am sure I can fit in me time then. Tomorrow the kids go into OSCH in the morning then mum and dad pick them up after school, take them to swimming lessons. I will pick them up from there. Who knows what we are having for tea. I like my job so far, just today it has been one thing after another. Almost like oh hang on things are going smoothly, let me throw a spanner in again. We can't have things running smoothly.

I just need to calm down. Tomorrow I have to ring optus and tell them I will pay money and please please don't cut off my phone. I will tell my boss that yes they did try to take my money out for my uniforms and they will have to wait until I get paid. Deep breaths deep breaths.

BOO

Poor Prowler, she flaked it on my desk with her back to me. I lent over and said BOO in her ear. Not to loudly but not that soft. I have never seen a cat leap up so quick!! I really did laugh out loud while she quickly started to clean herself to cover her deep humiliation!

I am very chatting today. Don't worry I start work at 3 so will stop soon lol

Make up your mind

So there is a new date for the opening of the store! 8th of December. Now I don't know how true that it as it came from another staff member who knows about as much as I do.

I was at Marion yesterday training. It sucked. The supervisor just threw us on a register and left us!! So much for training. We muddled through with help from other staff but even so. In comparison to Welland the other week it was disgusting!! Lets hope today is better.

Anywho was chatting to the girl who was with me and she doesn't like that other woman that I want to smack all the time either!! We had a good chat/bitch session!!

Have I mentioned how much I enjoy being around people????

Payday tomorrow. My first. I hope anyway. I brought a water cooler today out of my Centrelink Pay and if I don't get paid tomorrow I will be up the creek as the cooler was $100. I still have to put fuel in my car and that will be it really. I haven't really done any shopping so I better get paid tomorrow. Oh I need to buy a uni book as well. Fingers crossed.

And she goes, she goes, she goes and she just goes.....

I got close enough today to take a photo!!! And she didn't take off but if I pushed my luck further she would have gone. She has just started coming out from under my bed to sleep on it.

Failie has gone off to her boyfriend's abode so only have the two here at the moment. As Failie is a big bully I think it has been good not to have her here to give Kitty time to settle in. I had just about given up but she has gotten better. I doubt we will ever be able to pat her and she will never come to us but least we will see her a bit now. She is slowly coming out of hiding. Mainly when the kids aren't here but least she is progressing.

Another day ........

Was able to watch Patrick play cricket today which was good. (boring but good) He is getting better that is for sure.

While we were at the school I went and voted. I hate voting. I really really do. They are all as bad as one another and you have to pick the best of a bad lot. It pisses me off no end that I don't want labour or liberal to get in but that never happens. I don't know that much about politics so I go by what I know I guess. I voted Family First. I am not particularly keen on labour getting in but it is bound to happen. How easily people forget is all I can say. (should point out I will not be getting into any political debates with anyone in the comments section should you feel the need to express your differing opinion to mine. No problem with that at all. Everyone is entitled. That is why we vote! :)) Anyway I remember mum and dad struggling with so much when labour was in. Interest rates were like 21%!!! That is just unreal. Like someone said today she didn't know any better back then as she didn't have a mortgage, it didn't effect her. Basically for me, I am ok. Yes I could be better but I could be worse. I think we are going along ok and honestly don't think a change in government is going to make me better off. I am happy to wait and see now though. But this is here now and I can look back in years to come and say "shit I was so wrong" or "Yep I was right!" lol time will tell.

Knocked off work an hour early again today. There just isn't that much to do towards the end of the day this week. I am back tomorrow. Was supposed to be 2-6 but they said to come in at 12. That way I can still get my 4 hours. Again people standing around doing stuff all. There were a whole heap of girls just doing crap jobs because they felt that taking boxes of wine off a pallet and putting it onto shelves was to hard for them. It was funny though as a couple of senior people got them working again, carting boxes around. These are 18 year old girls I am talking about here. They couldn't even last 1 hour lifting the boxes and putting them away!! They are going to have a rude shock when the store opens and they have to work for 4 hours continuously!!

Have to say that 2 years ago I wouldn't have been up for doing this. I have been doing this whole boxes thing for hours at a time. It is hard work and I get a sweat up doing it. It has made me glad that I have gotten myself this fit and strong. Honestly I would be fitter and stronger then some of the 18 year old boys there!! Secretly I am proud of that. It does make me feel good.

However this whole work thing is wreaking havoc with my eating. Example: today I started at 12 to finish at 7. So breakfast no worries. Only getting a half hour break today. I don't want to get hungry to quick and don't want to have my break to early so as I am to hungry before I finish. So I have lunch at 11.30. (fruit salad and yoghurt. Yes I am eating fruit. The yoghurt helps lol) Then have my break at 4.00. (tuna salad and some cashews) This I basically would class as dinner. Perhaps when I finish work I could have a yoghurt if I was really hungry. But of course I finish work early, go to mum and dad's and have dinner there!!

I guess when the store opens things will settle down. I will also not be doing so much manual labour and be burning so many calories. But it is frustrating and something I am struggling with.

Ok well this little black duck is saying stuff cleaning up anything tonight I am going to bed now!!!

The House

Ok so I mentioned that we went and did the inspection on this house and it was gross. Prior to the inspection they had ripped up the carpet in the lounge room because it was a health hazard but never replaced it. There was rubbish left in the laundry, a fridge in the lounge room and light fittings missing in a bedroom. Generally the house was left disgustingly dirty and gross. It smelt and was just foul. There are so many fly marks on all the light fittings it is going to be awful cleaning them. Also in the kitchen there was food on the light fittings. Holes in the walls and doors missing and fly screens missing.

When we did the out going inspection we didn't venture outside to much but enough to see that a mattress, lawn mowers, bikes, trampoline top and lots of other crap and rubbish. (is there a difference) When we were there the other day to get a quote from the cleaner we ventured further outside. We were out there for a while before we noticed all the fleas on us!!! They must have been in the mattress. It was horrible. I had so many little bits on me. Dad had had an outbreak of fleas at their place and he had only just washed all the animals and bedding etc, so we really didn't want to infest our houses. So we drove back to their house and got mum to pass out the fly spray, so we could spray ourselves and the car. Honestly it was so gross!

It looks like it is going to cost us about $1000 just to clean the place, inside and out. Then it has to be repainted. I am also going to replace all the light fittings and also it is going to have to have new fly screens through out! Crazy that people live like this. They had 6 kids and the youngest was about 2. How said it that. However we have to deal with the aftermath. Yuk.

Just how bad do you want this job?????

People do astound me at times. Ok this store is going to be over populated with staff after Christmas. There were so many people there today. There are only 4 registers so on a normal week they are not going to need 20 checkout chicks! Even working part time!!

Chatting to another guy yesterday and he said that he had been talking to the boss and he said oh yeah after Christmas people will be leaving!!!!

So if that is the case why the fuck are people so obviously doing nothing during the day???????

I ended up working with this guy yesterday and as we were going to put some stock away we walked past a couple talking. One holding a broom, the other a dustpan and broom. Just standing and talking. I made the comment of "there are so many people standing around doing nothing when there is so much to do at the moment" He told the me yep and they are getting noticed!!!

Turns out that this guy was the stock supervisor!! Lol.

A bit later in the day The boss said anyone he has been here since 9 or 10 can have the option of going home in an hour. A few things needed to be done first then if they wished they could go. Well five minutes later they were all standing around leaning on trolleys etc talking. While a handful of us found something to do until the next stock truck came in. After they had left the stock supervisor said "well if you want to know who is coming to the Christmas party look around this is it!!" Very very interesting!!

Got my roster for next week and basically after today I am working everyday until next Friday. I am going to be stuffed. Luckily it is only about 5 or 6 hours each day. I miss taekwondo next Tuesday but can go Wednesday and Saturday so that is good.

Oh and the girl I want to continually beat senseless because she annoys me so much is pregnant!! So will certainly only want part time now. Ok yes I really do want the supervisors job now!!!! Gimme gimme gimme!!

What else?? Oh my radiator has been leaking coolant for a while. I spoke to the crash repairers because I think it is crash related. They wanted me to send the car to Edwardstown get it taken out and then the assessor looks at it says yes or no and if no then I have to pay up and get it fixed. I cracked at that. So now I am taking it to my mechanic. My mechanic is wonderful and he had a great talk this morning. He said without even looking at it of course it is crash related!! The replaced the air con condenser and that is within millimetres of the radiator. I laughed and said so you rest your case!! Yep he said. So that is happening Wednesday. So hopefully Peter will get the assessor to back down. I think they regret not writing my car off and it has ended up costing them money. Well hey tough luck mate you made your bed.......

Ok better hang some washing out. Trying to get organised. I have so much to do really. The floors are foul here, the lawns need mowing, I have study to do and I have not even looked at the material yet, I am going out to lunch with mum and dad, I have to organise work to begin on a co-op house. Have I mentioned the trashed house?? I will look back. Not got time now but I will check and if not I will fill you in. It is a doozy!!

Should just mention that i have not thought about J for a while now and it is great. I am loving my job. I am loving the fact that it is starting from scratch and I am part of that. It is very exciting and stuff Harvey Norman. This was the reason why I didn't get that job. I will be even happier when I get paid next week. Things are really bad money wise right now but next week things will be good. Not great but good. Will ease the pressure a lot.

Whine anyone?????

Geez what a day. So first to the supervisors thing. Found out nothing so in the end I asked!! Mark said that they had not sorted positions yet and he was going to be guided by what the trainers said (I am assuming the others in the stores we visited. So Sharee in my case). So that is fine. The only thing is that other chick had two days with Sharee and tomorrow as well. Whereas I will only see her tomorrow for a short amount of time. So who knows. I think now I do want it. And I really don't want that other girl to have it.

SO the deal today was that they only got a few people in as they thought that they would not be getting much stock in. Yeah pigs bum not much stock. Basically spent the day unloading pallets and putting the boxes on the shelves. So it is good. I now know where all the spirits are. Where all the RDT's are. (I still don't know what that stands for but I know it is the premixed stuff so that is the main thing) So hopefully tomorrow a bit more wine will come in and I will find my way around that as well.

But it was all good albeit tiring. I have decided not to go to the gym tomorrow. I don't start work until 12. But after today shifting boxes and carrying them around I don't think I need to. I work until 8 tomorrow and mum and dad are bringing the kids back here after the kids have their swimming lessons and will put them to bed. So I think the time will be better spent in the morning doing a quick tidy up while I can.

The people all seem nice there today. Mind you only 5 of us apart from the managers are actually going to be working in this store. Also there was only 4 females amongst heaps of guys and only 2 of us from this store. Weird. I seem to get on well with this one guy who also seems happy working with me. He is a single parent as well so we have that in common. We are also basically the same age. So it was nice today to chat about lots of stuff, like kids, killer rabbits (his pet rabbit bit him and boy did it do damage) past work history etc.

This is what I was looking forward to.... adult interaction. It means that my alone time I am going to appreciate a hell of a lot more because I am meeting new people and lets face it having a bit of a life!!!!

But for now I am off to bed because although not tired per say I am stuffed!! It does feel different.

Oh before I forget. Had taekwondo tonight. I had spoken to the instructor about grading. I am worrying that if I have to miss a few lessons I won't be able to grade. But he is running through everything I need to know and I will practice at home so I am 100% clear on it and all things running smooth I should be a blue belt by the end of the year. Then I feel I can slow down.

Ok really going to bed now!!

getting fitter but.....

Saw G this morning. He took all my measurements again and did the fitness tests. Well my measurements went down a tiny bit. So have to tighten up the eating thing. I have been a bit slack the last two weeks so back into it again. Writing it all down. I did the shopping this morning so am prepared for the week ahead.

My fitness is just improving in leaps and bounds. I went from doing 26 pushups on my toes to 32, beep test went from 4.8 to 5.0, the bike test was good. Hard to summarise this one but my heart rate on the last level last time was 124, it was 104 this time. My flexibility improved as well. The only thing that didn't was my abs. That is so hard and the one thing I have been concentrating on. I mean I didn't practice push ups etc but I really tried to do my abs! So that is sucky.

So half good. Just got to work on the food thing.

one down and a long way until retirement

No seriously it went well. More of an indication that I am going to be "front end controller" When I got to the store I was shown everything the supervisor does. She is assuming that is what I will be doing. Very interesting considering no one has really told me. This woman and I had a bit of a chat and she said that she had spoken to Mark (the guy who interviewed me and organising things so far) that they did want someone senior.

But N was there. This is the woman I wanted to smack out Saturday. And if I wanted to smack her out then today I wanted to pummel her into the ground. It was fairly obvious that I was training for supervisor. She was not really happy about this. Asking if I was going to be supervisor, had I actually applied for the supervisors position, was I full time???? She basically wants the job. She is younger than me. I would guess in her 20's. She is just one of those people who knows EVERYTHING. So if in fact I do end up supervisor I can see that I am going to have trouble with her. The thing is that next year she only wants to work school hours as her daughter starts school. How can you be supervisor if you are only working part time?? ummmmm tell me how???? So miss know it all put that in your pipe and smoke it.

So although it is very exciting that I may be supervisor. I mean geez how good will this look for the cops next year??? No confidence my foot! But on the other hand it is very scary!! I have no product knowledge and no knowledge of the workings of the store either. I did discuss this with Sharee today and she said you pick it up and you will be fine. We discussed heaps today and I am sure that some will get back to Mark. It should be good if it did. So I don't know. If I was supervisor, it also means that I don't have to be on the register all the time, it means I am not just a checkout chick. And it think after all my time as a checkout chick I am due for more than that!! So fingers crossed for Wednesday.

You know what else? It is amazing how times have changed. Lol how old do I sound now???? But I felt old. When I last worked retail,over 10 years ago we had a cash register, we counted our float when we got to work and when we finished work. Now???? Nope it is all touch screen, you don't have to count the money at all. You just put it all in a bag and I mean all bar your money for the morning ($390. In any form so I guess the cash office puts it into nice useable amounts for the morning), so your bag is just a massive mish mash of coins and notes. It goes to the cash office then gets picked up by the armoured guards people. So much better.

Ok time to admit something. I am hopeless at maths. Any type of adding, subtracting etc. So it is good that the computers do it all for you. But if I stuff up.... Panic stations. I just freeze because I don't want to look like a fool and then my brain stops working. I have been practicing counting back to give the right change but I got into a tizz when someone gave me a $50 plus extra change. We all do it... you know what I mean..... you haven't got the exact money but you have the exact coins etc. It has taken me ages to get that one. I think I have it sorted now with mum's help. But that is what I mean I am totally clueless and stupid when it comes to stuff like that and I hate people knowing it, because then they see me as stupid because it is all so simple for everyone else. I just have keep playing it out in my head until I really get it. Ok confessions over!!

OMG full on

I have had a couple of hectic days. Yesterday I drove out to St Peter's (over an hour away) to do the Responsible Service of Alcohol course. That was ok. Met a few people that will be working at the store with me.

Then drove up to mum and dad's place to go to the loo then around to a co-op house to do an inspection. Now this is the inspection from the trash people. And the house was awful. They have left a fridge in the lounge room, rubbish in the laundry, masses of crap outside and the whole place was just gross. So there is going to be a lot of work to do and I will have to organise it all given I am maintenance officer. Then after that back to mum and dad's for a maintenance meeting, then as soon as that was over we had a METS (membership, education, tenancy and secretary) meeting. I got home at about 10!

Then this morning I was at Marion by 8.50 for induction training. That was boring but good. Got a roster for this week. I am doing training at another store Monday, Tuesday off, Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday I am at the new store. But only have to wear casual clothes do to the fact that the store is not ready yet and we will be just unloading trucks and sorting out that.

Now the interesting thing is that the roster was separated into about 5 groups. They were only separated by a line. Now from what I can gather that the group I am in is front end staff. One other group is floor staff. My guess is that there are 2 groups of front end and floor and then 2 groups of store staff and who knows what the other group is as it was only small. Ok so on the roster on Wednesday one person from each group of people are going to the new store. It is the first time any of us will be at that store. We are all there for exactly the same amount of time. (I am one of those people) where as the next day heaps of us are there and at different times (as you would expect to cover lunches etc) So why do you think that is? Are we the team leaders for those groups? I am dieing to know. It could be nothing I guess but I am really really curious to know! I hope it is what I am guessing about. That would be great.

So far I am the oldest female. (I haven't met everyone yet though) Also one of the few older people there! The majority are 17-21 year olds. Then a handful my age. There was one girl there who was talking loudly to some others saying..." Oh I think I am going to be trained up as a supervisor. I was supervising in my last job. I was getting an extra $56 each week above what I normal got...." She was only young but I wanted to smack her out.

I just want to start. So really I will get all the goss on Wednesday. Monday won't be wonderful as it is another store but there will be 2 other girls from my store there with me as well as some guys who I assume will be out on the floor.

I am excited but nervous. I know nothing about booze. But then I am just behind a cash register so I can just pass customers over to the floor staff.

Will keep you updated.

If Dreams could come true

He would wrap his arms around me and hold me tight.
He would think I am beautiful even after just getting out of bed.
He would want to be with me
He would miss me when he wasn't with me
He would support and encourage me
He would enjoy being with my kids as much as being with me
He would fit with me
He would find me......

Icky icky wah wah

Sitting down at the computer last night after I had gotten home from a meeting. Turned the screen off and got up. Turned around and there on the ceiling above the computer desk was a massive massive spider!! So after I had calmed down and realised that it was not reasonable to ring dad and get him to get it for me. I had to think about how I was going to deal with it. I didn't want to squash it with a shoe or something as that meant I had to get close to the horrible thing. Another factor was that it would fall behind the computer desk. (a big desk with shelves above my head with the printer, folders and filing on it.)

So after some deliberation. (had to be quick in case it disappeared) I decided that I would have to risk the falling spider and chose death by foam. So spray away I did! And the bloody thing did fall behind my printer. So in the few terrifying seconds that it was there I was debating what to do, when it came running out from under the desk. Now I am truly thankful it ran towards my chair than somewhere else and I wouldn't see it. Having said that though. I have now invented a lovely dance and it is amazing how light on my feet I can be. But the little sucker came running out to only look down the nozzle of my $5 can of fly spray.

Here is a little tip. Copious amounts of fly spray sprayed onto lino will make the lino shine as if it is brand new!! It also produces a little toxic wading pool for the 8 legged mammoth thing. He did eventually tuck those 8 legs up and died. I scooped him up with the dust pan and broom (the long handle ones as I was not getting anywhere near him) and ditched him outside.

The I sat down and waiting for my heart to return to its normal programming!

I just wanna...........

I just wish I could start work now!! I hate this sitting around waiting for the days to go by. Ok I am not literally sitting and waiting but it is like that.

Went to the gym this morning with Karen. It was so much better to go with her than by myself. I am going to see if G can fit me in on Wednesdays from now on so that I can go with Karen to the gym on Tuesdays. Of course that will all fly out the window once I start working!! See what I mean. It is a pain all this not knowing!!

Will have to find myself some new shoes this week as well. I only have boots to wear with pants and not only to they have a huge heel, I don't want to be wearing them in the summer. I just got another sports bra off of ebay as well so my money is slipping away pretty quick. I did however find out that the ceiling rent for my new house will be $204 per week. So that is good. Not the $250 like I feared. I also found out that my child support won't change until next year when I do my tax return. Of course shit for brains can ask for a new assessment to be done and in which case it would change then. I wouldn't put it past him to do that. He is such a dick.

Went down the beach with Laura, Lachlan and mum and dad's pup yesterday. We walked quite away which I didn't realise. Dad ended up coming to get us. Someone was coming to look at the pup. I didn't have my phone with me so he had to take the car to look for us. After he finally found us luckily we were on the part of the beach where the cars are allowed so he drove right up to us and took us home. It was then I saw how far we had walked. So although I now have half the beach in the car it was nice to have a ride home!!

Kitty makes three

Yep back to 3 cats again. Luckily I feed all raw food so they don't cost much. She is British Short hair. Like Prowler but is a Tortoiseshell one. (not sure if that is the correct term for her colouring but oh well) The reason we have her is that she is a tea cup cat. A tiny tiny wee little thing. She is quite a few months old. (need to find out really) But she never grew to be as big as her brothers and sisters. Mum and dad still have one of her brothers and he is massive. So finally dad said we could have her.

Now we come to her name!! Lol Kitty kitty...gone. That is her name!! I am sure you are all sitting there going "what the.....?" Little Kitty Kitty Gone is a very timid little thing and the only reason it took so long for us to have her is that we couldn't catch her. (all these cats are inside cats!) I was helping mum and dad one day and she was in the door way of the room we working in. I called her. (she had no name at this point) Going Kitty kitty kitty. Like you do when calling a cat. The she just took off. I went oh gone. In a different voice. So that is how she got her name. Kitty kitty gone!!

So don't know how she is going to cope. She is a timid little thing so I have told the kids to just pretend she is not here. We shall just have to wait and see.

Went to the gym today. Just as well as my eating has been a tad crappy. I am supposed to be having my monthly check in with G on Tuesday and the last few days I have not made healthy choices. Mind you I have started eating muesli as it keeps me full for a long time. Thing is I eat a lot of it. And I have been spending the equivalent in the toilet. It is bad. I have never been so regular in all my life. Lol tmi I know but geez I can't get over it. My switch to soy and linseed bread wouldn't' be helping.

So my eating apart from the last couple of days has been better. It is amazing what happens when you have to write it down. I can see that it has gotten better over the weeks. I am not snacking on crap anymore, no longer eating after my evening meal. The only thing I need to work on is portion size. I am having 2 bowls for breakfast (bowls of muesli, the bowls would hurt my mouth to much), 2 sandwiches for lunch when one would be sufficient. So I still have little things to get around. It will be interesting to see if I have lost anything. Fingers bloody crossed. He will kill me otherwise. (well he won't really but he will talk to me and I will be so pissed off at myself for not showing him that I can do it. So stupid to feel like that but oh well)

Off to the gym again tomorrow. Doing Body Balance with Karen. Mum is looking after the kids again. Bless her. This is my last week of freedom so I need to make the most of it. I was going to do Cardio. The class is going to be at 11. So I could only do it after the BB class. Doesn't really make sense to do Cardio after getting all relaxed from BB. But I feel like I should do it. Now thinking about it though. I do that tomorrow, (still get a sweat up doing it) then cardio Monday, see G on Tuesday for weights, then I will be on track. Ok sounds like a plan.

Who Knows.....

Me being so totally anal have basically spent the whole day trying to work out the money situation once I am working. I think I will be better off but not by much because my rent is going to go up by so much. I am not sure of the ceiling rent on the new place but I have been working it out at $250 a week. So that is where most of my pay will go and that is what brings it back down to what I was before. I don't know I really don't. I think I should just stop thinking about it. I only really lose my parenting payment which is $500 a fortnight. And I will be earning way more than that. I was surprised actually though I still keep most things and really as long as i don't earn over $41000 a year I should keep my pension card.

I got a call from Dan's today. I have to do an Responsible Alcohol Service. Or something like that. I do that next Friday. Then of course I have the induction next Saturday. The woman I spoke to today said that she should have training rosters drawn up by then as we are going out to train at other stores. Should be interesting.

Was supposed to go to the gym today. I am such a slacko for not going but I am tomorrow as mum and dad are looking after the kids. It is bad. Well not really. I usually go to the gym 2 a week, See G once a week, go to taekwondo at least 2 a week (90 minutes each time) so all up I do a lot of exercise. So why do I feel so guilty about not going to the gym. I am seriously screwed in the head I swear.

Hi Ho Hi Ho

So yes got the job at Dan Murphy's. Starting as a casual but full time hours. Which is fine by me as it means more money. Working the front end. Sounds like working the tills a fair bit. But that is ok.

So it is great I now have a full time time. So why am I getting teary all the time about it? I think mainly because of the kids. I am hardly going to see them and when I do I am going to be grumpy and tired. Who knows also how much better off I am going to be as well. I sit and think I will get this when I start working, I will do this etc. But chances are it is still going to be really really tough. It is also going to take a while to get on top of everything as well.

Still I now have a job. I knew it wouldn't take long. I will finally meet people. Finally get out of my own little world where I don't see or spend time with anyone. Hopefully I will make some friends out of it. But even if I don't it will just be nice to be able to work with people. Hard to explain but there it is.

So induction is on the 17th November. The store opens on the 3rd December. There is time spent in store during the in between time as well. It is going to be hard before the school holidays but once the school holidays hit and after when the kids go to the new school it will be easier. Mum and dad will be closer. But until then it is going to be a lot of running around for everyone I think. I may start at 8 for example so the kids will have to go to OSCH but then I don't finish until 5 or 6. So mum and dad will have to pick them up and take them to swimming or cricket practice etc. Which is all down at Reynella. Pain in the bum.

All in all it is quite daunting. It has been so long since I have done this. I am scared about how I am going to cope.

Geez Louise

Yesterday I went to a Melbourne Cup Lunch. Now because I have been good in terms of no chocolate and the like I gave myself permission to eat without guilt yesterday. (and G's permission) It was lovely. Strawberries dipped in chocolate. (so fruit as well as chocolate. Does one cancel out the other?) Pav etc. Yum. So why is it so hard to get back into it today? Two sandwiches for lunch and a bag of the new Helga's mini baguettes. (they were on special so I had to try them. Yum Yum Yum so will never buy again) So I have to really pull my head in and get it together.

Have to go back to my mantra "If I eat it I have to write it down and G will kill me." I tell you that is such a big motivating factor in me not eating junk!!

Had the interview for Dan Murphy's this morning. Very quick. I do have to wonder at the sense of some people. In answer to this question " what do you do if you can't complete a task?" they said not sure!!!! OMG. You can't do that. I said well I would speak to my supervisor and ask if they need me to stay back to complete it or can I finish it tomorrow or find some sort of solution. Like another question. "what happens if you see a hazard?" well geez. I don't know leave it there and spy on people falling over. Well that would be funny but I don't think that answer would get me the job. Are people really that thick???

Anywho I find out Friday. They have quite a few positions available and he mentioned about a senior position perhaps. That would be good. Even if it didn't happen straight away it would still be good. Hell I just want a job.

One thing I found out though. Ok minors buying booze is a no no. But if a parent or other adult is in the shop with a minor and is buying for that minor you can't serve them. Even if the adult is doing the transaction. Makes sense but it would be a hard call sometimes. On the spot fines of $5000 to person serving them and $20000 to the store!! Learn something new every day.

Humbling experience yesterday. Went to Families SA (office of families and communities or who ever they are) because things are so bad here. My home phone is only getting inbound calls. (so now I am over my cap on my mobile. Just a bloody big circle.) They paid the last of my electricity bill and some of my home phone bill. It is good and helped but I feel so yuk about it. I can't wait to have a pay. It will still be hard as I am sure the money won't be fantastic but even so I can't be worse off.

No Cheap Computers for Me

So I guess I hold out for cheap booze???? Got the phone call this morning. Apparently my interview was fantastic and the only reason I didn't get the job was because the guy that did had HN experience. Well whoop de do. Doesn't help me at all though does it.

So hopefully the next thing will be Dan Murphy's.

Ok off to the RTT again this morning. Apparently thought the tenant has done a runner. We are only after right of entry so we will get that. We will go around there today and I am dreading it. It was trashed while they were living there. I hate to think what it is going to be like now they have gone. I am half expecting to find shit etc just a single finger sign to us. We shall see.

coming out of the woodwork

A guy from Dan Murphys just called me. Gave me a little interview over the phone and then asked me to come in for an interview. It is out at Norwood so that is a big fat pain. On the other side of town. However it all sounded good on the phone. Amazing how much better you get as you get older. I sprouted out so much bullshit about customer service and team work I even impressed myself!! It is a full time position and although not as good as the HN job (which I still don't know about BTW) it would be ok.

I didn't end up going to the coles interview. It was just to far to travel for a job I would hate. If it was closer I would have done it for the simple fact I need a job.

This Dan Murphy store is close. Well at the moment it is but when I move it will be about 20 minutes drive away but that is ok. It means I would still go to my gym. If I get a job near where I live now I wouldn't go the my gym. It would be to far away. I don't like the only gym near me now. It is Zest and having been there before and knowing how much I do about gyms now I really don't want to go there.

Geez it will be so good to be working full time. Not only will have the human interaction but I would have MONEY!!!! Now this will not be a huge pay but hey it is better than what I am getting now!!! Of course the down side is that all of a sudden I am going to be a single working mum to three kids who is studying two degrees as well!! And wow even just writing that is scarey. I am going to be so tired. I am still going to have to go to the gym as well. SO excitement and scary all rolled into one.

I have to say that my eating is getting better each week. Last week was shocking. This week is better. My mantra is no i will have to write it down and G will kill me!! lol. Good motivation.

Kmart gave me the money back for Patrick's phone to. Just in time really as an email came saying that the company couldn't provide the service and offered a whole heap of options. None of which I was happy with. So it worked out well. I ended up getting him a little prepaid thing. Of course Matt knows about it and I can only hope that Matt is being grown up about it all and not using it himself or taken it off Patrick. It is really thin and doesn't have a cord or anything. I am going to see if mum can make a pouch for it or something for it.

Just finished Taekwondo. Really didn't feel like going but I did. Rachel and I went out last night so I wanted to do was sleep. But it was good once I was there.

Oh before I forget. The one person you do not expect to see at a night club...... Your 5 year olds school teacher lol. To funny. She says after a week of teaching she needs to get out. Hey don't blame her.

Procrastination..... A man thing?

Holy crap, I just rang HN again. Didn't speak to the guy but got told that he hasn't made a decesion yet but appreciates my call and will give me a call back!!! When damn it when?

So now he is probably really pissed off and annoyed that I have rung and that will make his decision for him! Shit I hate this.

On another note. Patrick's mobile phone company have gone under. Now this is a special phone which is hooked up to the Internet and has a GPS tracker, which I get charged .44c per day for. However that has been out of action for ages and after unanswered emails I tried ringing today. Disconnected. Rang the ombudsman and they told me. So I have taken the phone back to Kmart. They are getting back to me. Not happy. I can't recharge the phone as I had to ring up to do that because of the type of phone it is. I am hoping that Kmart will just say give her the money back and I will just buy a normal phone this time. They should be letting me know today. I had a bit of a melt down in front of them which was horrible but least they knew it was urgent so although embarrassing hopefully it greased the wheels a bit.

Things are really bad money wise yet again. No phone atm, electricity so overdue not funny. I went to Dept Families and they gave me a Woolworth's voucher for $100. Couldn't believe it. Still doesn't help with the bills but helps with the food. I am going back there Tuesday for them to ring the companies for me to sort something out. Maybe coming from them it will make them understand that I am having trouble. All very humiliating though.